A realisation that changed my life forever

Starting the new year 2020 with positive vibes

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There was a time in my life when I used to wake up feeling like there was this heavy weight on my chest. I didn’t want to leave my bed, dress up, and go to college. I kept pushing my roommate away when she asked me to accompany her to the dining room. I spent my days alone, staring at my phone, hoping for it to ring.

Waiting for a message from that one person I knew wouldn’t text me back.

I was losing weight. My hair was falling out. My professors had asked my friends what was up with me: why was I missing so many classes. They tried to reach out to me, but my phone was full of missed calls, unanswered messages. I was falling, and I didn’t know how to stop. My skin looked so pale, random strangers on the street stopped me to ask if I was okay.

I told them I was. But that was not the truth.

My ex-boyfriend and I had been together for three years. We had shared every happy memory, every life lesson, every new discovery of our life in that time. And all of a sudden, he had abandoned me to walk alone on a path we had promised to walk together forever.

I was devastated.

Don’t blame me. I was only 21. He was my first love. With him gone, I felt…